Why I took a break from everything.
The past week or so I have been quite on all social media.
I really haven’t posted a lot. I haven’t shared pictures or even written on my blog.
I had to step back and think. I had to get some advice. I had to talk it out. I had to reflect.
What am I doing? Why am I doing this? What do I need to do to take this to the next level. How is my business NOT a business? Why am I not making any money? A lot to think about and a lot to take on.
I stepped away from all of this and the phone. I had to focus on what is in front of me. I had to have someone put some reality in my ear and make me figure out what I wanted and how I need to proceed.
I took a couple of weeks off to prepare for my college freshman to come home for spring break. When she chose the school we didn’t agree. When we dropped her off we thought that she would be able to come home more often. I was so upset when none of that happened. So, I focused on the fact that she was coming home at all. We last saw her in Jan and it was now March. Nothing else really mattered than having both of my kids in the same house. I needed to see her to realize that she is still safe.
Every time I looked at her, I kept thinking what my “why” was. It was her and my son. I needed to do mote. I needed to up my game. I needed to be here. So, I took that time. I have been studying. I have been reading. I have been reflecting. I am still here and need to make big changes. It’s not always easy. With a mind like mine, it takes some time to get back on track.
I am still here. I am just re-focusing. I am not make millions. Or even thousands but I am making small changes. I am making a small difference in someone’s life. Hell, I am making a difference in my own life. I no longer have the thoughts that could have killed me years ago.
Sometimes, no matter how much we want something, we need to take a step back. We need to re-evaluate things that are important and it’s ok. I have so many goals and dreams but sometimes it isn’t the right path for me and that took a toll on me.
I am a survivor for reasons unknown, so I am not giving up. I just may be changing courses.
Now that I know my kids are ok and safe, I am breathing a little easier and will be back to the path that I am meant to be on.